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It's been a while since I reviewed anime and manga stuff, but I didn't have the energy while I was writing my thesis full speed. Now I'm finally done so I'll get back to it, but UGHHHHH it fucking sucks how things just vanish from my head in a week after watching them lmao
My life is currently at the normiest it's ever been except for like when I was in middle school I guess. I went out and got extremely drunk almost 3 weeks in a row. I've always been able to a) control my drinking, b) not get blackout drunk and c) hold my liqour well yet it seems now that I'm 25 I have turned into a 13 year old who just discovered the wonders of cheap wine mixed with cola for the first time. Christ I drank so much of this certain extremely sweet hard liqour whose name in english I do not know that I got a yeast infection. Yeah you read that right. At the very least my hangovers are practically non-existant, but my energy levels are so low. I don't like going out so often, but ever since my best friend broke up with her ex she's been way too active and if I don't get out every once in a while I'll get extreme fomo... Getting destroyed once every month or two months is my usual preference.
As a result of this newfound normie life I feel too tired for online bullshit. I do this every couple of years, when I cleanse myself of all the terminally online things I've been diving in for months on end to avoid any obligations I'm procrastinating on, however my site doesn't fall into this category as luckily I keep my social interactions minimal here and I'm glad it's this way. I shoooould check my e-mail now that my uni shit is finally kind of over with, I still have some document shit to settle though. Also I finally got kind of an idea for my new layout but I'm unsure how to begin because I wanted to move my site to an actual host so I can mess with php finally, but that would greatly change how I plan to structure my site... Maybe I'll stick to just plain old css and html for the last time and then remake that new version of the site later. Yeah that sounds okay.
I still have to do something with my home time so I'm still playing Dark Souls, currently I reached the final boss and it's good that I read beating him immediately sends you into new game + so I did a 360 and moonwalked away into the DLC. Which is really fun btw. Artorias was great. It's so retarded how Tera, a coomer korean mmo, is my baseline for everything my head, but I love when DS bosses remind me of Tera. I miss that stupid game... The wonders of cheesing hitboxes and perfect positioning and iframe utilization while watching the DPS meter like a hawk ah... and something you practiced weeks to beat just ends up turning into a completely automated process with time... I miss Bahaar! I've also been playing Read Dead Online with my husband which is just... SO. buggy. Like I didn't even know!! I spent some time reading about how rockstar completely fumbled the bag with it which I don't get. I'm too lazy to know the full story but it sucks how the game is full of hackers and seems totally abandoned by the devs. Also it seems like RedM has less server variety than FiveM so we just ended up playing rockstars version which is something we never do.
I'm slowly bringing my uni work to an end finally but that also means I have barely any energy left for my site or talking with people so I just disappeared. I have been hanging out with my irl friends a bit though, and was left with one particularly... humiliating... experience, but it would be better for my health if I just didn't write about it here at all lmao. My last outing was great though but my body is full of bruises and I'm all sore today. Suffice to say, I had a lot of fun.
I watched the new a24 horror with my sister today, Talk to Me. It was.. ehhhhhhh. One thing I can say with certainty is that demon posession and all that in the movie was a massive metaphor for drug abuse which, cute I guess because of the main cast being mostly teens but I fear this movie suffers way too much from the "characters too stupid you wonder how they're able to breathe properly" horror trope. It's even worse because the movie makes fun of it in a cringy meta way with a character going "crazy with people shit" yet he's the main one engaging with this stupid white people shit?????? Like ok lmao. The main character was infuriating on so many levels. Yeah, I get it, she's overcome with grief and she's obviously addicted but I couldn't stand her. Frankly I'm so glad it ended the way it did, massive relief for me lmfao. The movie was good at making you feel on edge in the second half, but the plot and characters were nothing to write home about. All in all I'm kind of disappointed, especially compared to The Witch, and even Pearl which were more freaky or just plain amusing/weird compared to this one. One thing I'll give it was the way the movie doesn't spell out to you who the bad guy is, and it does it in a good show and don't tell way. It's obvious by the very end of course with a few hints here and there but for a while it seems like the movie tries to sway your opinion in a different direction which was a nice touch.
In the two weeks that I have been absent online, I finished both Dark Souls 3 and Dark Souls 2 lmao. DS2 was the only one I played in the past in like 2016, but I never finished it due to playing co-op with my husband and he kind of got bored of it because he has a terribly short attention span when it comes to playing games (starts a million but finishes only a couple - could never be me, finishing Elden Ring was a STRUGGLE with him). We got to the Iron Keep or Shrine of Amala, can't remember exactly. Either way, I started DS2 from the beginning and made the cutest character with what the character maker allows, which frankly I was happy about because the DS char makers are always unecessarily complex and weird and I'm never happy with my characters, and I just can't bring myself to make an abomination. Anyway, holy shit I love DS2 so much. DS3 was painfully easy, especially the world itself, while the bosses gave me fair bits of struggle here and there like Sulyvahn, Lorian/Lothric, Nameless King, Soul of Cinder, Friede and the fucking Demon Prince fuck that guy, oh and how could I forget Gael too... Like DS3 is very much a boss simulator and I don't think I ever fell of a ledge or got properly ganked by the mobs which is where I find Dark Souls difficulty should lie in as well!!! Maybe it's because DS2 was my first fromsoft experience so I just got trained to be wary of ganks and always have a ranged weapon to pull enemies one by one and check for hidden spots instead of rushing in so everything after was way too easy, but hell, I think I struggled more in Elden Ring than DS3! Aside from the Ringed City, Ringed Knights were the funnest ever. ANYWAy, I turn up DS2 right after beating Gael, and holy shit I get absolutely destroyed in Heide Tower. Then I noticed the game on pc is fucked and I have to turn the double clicking thing off and on every time I boot the game up otherwise I'll have like 500 ping delay on mouse clicks LMAO. After I figured that out I got reminded of the turn based combat though... no animation cancelling whatsoever. But I got into it after an hour and I went through the game with such a smile on my face. I dropped my summon sign everywhere and I helped so many players, especially early game, it was so, SO fun. Except I also fell off ledges and corners an embarrassing amount of times, like right the moment I was summoned. Sorry to those players. I feel like using a big heavy weapon is so much more rewarding and fitting for DS2 because of the slower paced combat though, so I ended up having a stupid amount of fun with hammers and stuff, when usually I opt out for faster weapons... Even pvp and being invaded was amusing every time. People complain about runs to the bosses in ds2 but frankly most of the time they weren't so bad, but a lot of the times I was patient and always cleared off at least a couple of enemies I knew would be problematic. Plus the bosses are kind of easier to counter balance that so I never died enough times to make it a bother. The game still had a few really fun bosses like the Ivory King, Sir Alonne, Fume Knight, Smelter Demon and the Lost Sinner was a good early game boss... Yeah mostly DLC stuff lmao. Also the story... I really enjoyed the story in DS2 and Vendrick and Aldia were great. I feel like it hits a lot heavier than DS3's for some reason. Maybe I'm just a massive contrarian deep in my soul but both games were just as enjoyable to me. The voice acting also really stood out. Creighton, Pate, Titchy Gren, Ornifex, Aldia, Shalqouir, Straid, Bell Keeper??? So much insanity and fun. Leveling is way faster in DS2 so even getting ADP to where it's comfortable didn't feel like a chore... Idk man, I don't get the DS2 hate. I know it was released unfinished and that it got a bit fucked in the development, but the DLCs and SOTFS make it into a great game in my opinion, aside from a few small negatives, like the ETERNAL AGGRO RANGE in some areas. But it's all a matter of adapting and cheesing the shit you don't like and I love that!!! I love when I don't have to approach every area in the same way. Anyway, now that I finished DS2 in its entirety and before I feel like doing an ng+ I went and bought DS1 remastered because it was on sale, so now I'm playing DS1 too lmao. I'm only about a few areas in so I can't really form a proper opinion yet, but it feels like DS2 introduced a lot of qol things that the series picked up from then on compared to DS1, it feels like a massively different experience. Christ, that was a large sperg about Dark Souls.
Yet another complaining diary entry, but I feel like it's best to just let this stuff out in here than anywhere else... Recently I got into the habit of checking my countries subreddit a lot more often than I used to. Sadly, with the lack of activity and interesting topics on the main forum everyone used to use, reddit became a lot more popular. There is something peculiar about this reddit situation though, as it seems there are two subreddits intended to be the official subreddit of my country. The more popular one, that carries the name of the country in english is the '''woke''' one, aka the more leftist oriented one. The other one is the more politically incorrect one, but it's also a lot less active. Members of the second reddit basically congregate there because they might have made one too many homophobic or transphobic jokes so they got banned, or they were a little too nationalistic or something. The userbase of the second reddit certainly isn't too pleasant. HOWEVER... funny part is, while the first reddit is so BLATANTLY against offending gays and begendered people in order to appeal to the average redditors sensibilities, female hate is such a regular thing it's kind of mind boggling? Recently a lot of femicide has been going around in or around my country, or just regular male on female violence, which constantly brings up threads that innocently "question" why women are so stupid to get themselves killed (lmao), every time a thread is made in the support of women men will be highjacking it to make it about themselves, users will make threads such as "UHHHH why are we always talking about femicide in the news u guys??? are other victims not important >:(((" when in the past month we had an absurd amount of female violence (yet the news decided to completely focus on a group of male hooligans that went into a different country just to FIGHT so they got jailed and now the PARENTS of these adult male babies are vewwy sad and they want their babies back) or "why don't we teach women not to date bad guys and instead date nice guys (like me????)" yet in the same breath he's exclaiming something about male superiority or idk, every time there's a topic around parenting somehow all the bad examples are about evil, nasty, thot mothers... Not to mention all the casual misogyny that happens in random unrelated threads which somehow goes unnoticed. Every single thread about news with a woman in it will be shitting on the woman in a way a man would not have been shat on. There's a couple of resident libfem posters and every time they bring up feminism they got bombarded with lines in the vein of "this bitch again *rolls eyes*" when they let out a completely reasonable and milquetoast feminist take. Why does 50% of the population need to constantly put up with this shit and accept it as natural? "We're just discussing things :)". Imagine if we discussed gay or trans peoples rights in the same way we just "discussed" female rights lmfao. You'd get banned on the spot. I love male reddit feminists!
PHEW... Felt good to get this off my chest. The comments are admittedly less infuriating than on facebook or popular news portals so it's sadly one of the better options out there but man. I've been astounded lately by the sheer amount of male murder suicides that have been happening, and reading these insane theories and blatantly ridiculous questions is making my head hurt. I'm usually pretty good at shutting out the negativity but I guess the thought that these men might be my neighbours and friends is getting to me a bit. Feels like none of them ever had a female friend, or they've been utterly oblivious to anything and everything their female family members or classmates went through in their lives...
In other news, I finally picked up dark souls 3 again, before I went on my vacation I was almost done with the whole game leaving just a portion of the Ringed City DLC. I stopped playing at the Demon Prince boss fight which combined two things I hate the most about fromsoft games, first being double boss fights, second being multiple phase boss fights. Once I figured it out it was really easy though but ughhhh I was so lazy to get through it, funny how that's the first and only fight that filtered me for a whole month lmao. Now that I actually got to the hard portion of the DLC, holy shit it's really hard!!! I'm kind of suffering in here. But it's a good type of hard, the dreg heap was probably the worst designed area I've ever witnessed in any fromsoft game and I hated it so much. I hate fights where I can't freely explore after I clear all the enemies and instead I have to run through in panic... I'm finally on Gael now and it's been a fun ride ngl...