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It's been a while since my last entry, I wanted to write some stuff last week but I got too distracted by Dark Souls 3... I'm playing these games in the weirdest order. My first fromsoft game was actually DS2 which is such a polarizing game apparently, but I kind of liked it. I understand why people go off about its level and enemy design though. Then, many many years later, I played Elden Ring, and now DS3. Ideally I'd love to play Bloodborne but I don't have a ps4... Frankly DS3 feels easier than Elden Ring in some ways and this might be a controversial take, but I played ER solely in coop yet I feel like many bosses near the end were super punishing and annoying, and they'd be killed by pure luck after hours of trying. Like I have no idea how I'd go about killing the Godskin Duo if I was alone lmao. In DS3 I didn't use summons or magic once, and I played alone the whole time. I didn't get the final boss yet since I'm doing the DLC's first, but I'm basically done with 90% of the game. This is going to sound hilarious but Elden Ring gave me a similar feeling a few bosses from KH3 did, like I'd beat them after 3 hours and think to myself "I never want to do THAT again, but it was fun". DS3 is making me want to replay it more, just like older kh installments did though. Yes I'm comparing elden ring to kingdom hearts 3. They both had that "off camera you're getting shot with projectiles while the boss is moving erratically" quality to it.
In other news, my parents got a replacment car fairly quickly. Like just a few days after the fire, in fact. A kind neighbor came through and sold us a car he doesn't need. He's a car nut so we know the car is in decent shape otherwise he wouldn't have bought it in the first place. AND I also bought a car with my mom and sister (this was in the works before our family car went poof lmao) so now I'll have a car for myself (mostly) after I pass the driving test!! And my mom will get to use it full time once I leave the country. The car belonged to my mom's best friend's husband and it's also in really good shape. This is the first time in my life my family had more than one car lol. My driving lessons have been going well, I guess I'm in the final stretch now. I'll have to stop for two weeks now because I'm going to the seaside soon. I hope I'll pass on the first try because I just knoooow the test will create so much stress. I don't want stress diarrhea...
River swimming time is here again, except this year not so much. I didn't even go with my mom and grandma until like, mid July! Absolutely crazy but the river has been so dirty. There's a lot of rain this year, coupled with the fact that they're building a highway bridge some distance away from where we usually swim so I think all the mud is descending downstream. That said, when we finally went it was amazing, rivers are my favourite. This year there's been a lot of people at the "beach" where we usually swim, recession is hitting hard I think. Usually everyone turns up their noses when you mention going to the river but people are having a hard time affording the seaside this year because of rising costs. So I guess now the river is okay!! Hmph. Two days before going with my mom I went to sleep over at my friends and we spent the first afternoon chilling at the river close to her house, and then the next day in the morning she drove us to a river in her town that I've never been to before, it's a lot fresher and more clear. The river both of us usually go to has a very distinct smell (it's not dirty it smells like that from it's source, idk why) which this one lacked. Anyway I had a great time diving and swimming, and talking with my friend ughhh I'm so grateful to have her.
Speaking of friends, I just finished my seasonal facebook crawl, my former best friend got married... It's so weird to see her go through all these normie events in life. I'm not one to speak since I got married last year and all, but her whole facebook feed is full of pictures from bachelorette parties, baby birthdays, weird trad bbqs and stuff like that. There's also a weird vibe to all of them, like they're always wearing cringy matching t-shirts, renting houses with pools, everything is weirdly themed... I can't really pinpoint what exactly my issue is with this stuff but none of it seems like... common for this area where I'm from lmao. I've never heard of families doing these things, or have been to a family gathering that looked like that. There's just something off about this stuff. Literally every family gathering seems to have a themed tshirt for it LMAO. The vibe is almost... american. Like one of the families featured even does CHRISTMAS PHOTOSHOOTS and the ladies profile picture is her and her husband biting on a candy cane like who does that here?? Absolutely noone. Gives off the same vibe as those "pregnancy announcement" videos that get memed on all the time lmao. It seems like her husband is a religious village boy which is the type of man I have never had in mind she'd be interested in. Well, I hope she's happy, but the future I envisioned for her is NOT the reality and that's kind of offending me deep down (I say, jokingly). I always thought she'd be a cute, active and happy hipster girl living in the city with as many animals as she could fit into her place. Instead it seems like her older sister seems to have gotten a better deal... Man, we used to share so many nerdy hobbies together. Seeing stuff like this makes me feel like I'm either a womanchild at 25 or that people my age are starting to lose their personalities lmao. I'm spiraling and assuming too many things honestly, she's probably keeping most of her interests away from social media like most people are, but I'm going to leave this rant in anyway. I feel like I'm using this diary for venting about former friendships too often so in turn I seem too hung up on things, but I'm scared of venting about anything current out of fear of doxing myself lmao. This, I'm less ashamed of if somebody that knows me does end up finding up about pls understand.