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Hmmmmmm what has happened since I last wrote.. I've been venting and writing more in my physical diary more, but the more I do it the more anxious I feel somebody will read it LOL. My venting became so.. juvenile tbh lmao. I'm slowly turning into my dad with the nostalgia obsession. Anyway, I went on a short trip with my best friend last weekend, and it was a wonderful end to this massive heatwave we had. We went to an island where her aunt owns a small apartment so their whole family spends their holidays there. I got to meet her aunt, she's from a neighbouring country. She was also staying at the apartment with her friend lol. We had a great time, the sea on the beach we went to was so deep which I love because I love jumping and diving.. we managed to go swimming three times for like 2-4 hours per session in these two days which was amazing. When I came back all of my stuff was so salty and stiff, I still need to wash my tote bag. I got even more of a tan, despite applying sunscreen every 25 minutes like a maniac. Both me and my friend are mourning our pale winter complexions but we're both too summer loving to not get tanned. What a curse! When we were leaving we made a short stop at this super popular urbex location on the island. I took some photos, I hope they'll turn out okay. I had some cheap black and white film in so we'll see... I also didn't really have a lot of time to plan a good photo since the massive abandoned building had a TON of tourists in it so people kept walking into the frame lmfao. It was actually kind of hilarious, seeing random german tourists with ~4 year old children wandering around this place. Ah well.
Onto me ranting about unimportant internet matters again, but I'm getting angryyyy again. I feel like a lot of places I frequent are getting full of schizos stirring shit. Not just that, I seem to have witnessed, on 3 unrelated occassions, people talking with a straight face about stuff I thought everyone was always just memeing about. Schizos aside, everything is also full of pornbrained animecore zoomers. I can't. I can't!!!! My thoughts are becoming so jaded, elitist and mean spirited when it comes to engaging with younger people that share my interests. I don't want it to be that way but holy shit. How hard is it to keep your porn preferences to your goddamn self in a space that has absolutely nothing to do with porn??? SHUT UPPPPPPPPP AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. they'llgrowoutofit they'llgrowoutofit they'llgrowoutofit they'llgrowoutofit they'llgrowoutofit they'llgrowoutofit they'llgrowoutofit they'llgrowoutofit they'llgrowoutofit they'llgrowoutofit they'llgrowoutofit they'llgrowoutofit
Just like last year, I went to the seaside with my family... It was great, for the most part. We had a lot of fun in the sea, and I barely got a moments rest. Most of the time we were either in the sea, walking around, hiking, exploring or doing whatever other activity. I barely got to read my books, at least I passed half of Coin Locker Babies, which I really got into. I'll probably finish it this week. Most of the time I was too tired to even read so I just scrolled TikTok, which was a mistake honestly. That app is too convenient for when you're mildly tired, and I feel like it's making my brain too lazy because I'd rather jump on it instead of picking up a book. We were worried about the weather, and halfway into our vacation the massive floods hit Slovenia which is just devastating. Luckily we got away unscathed, but similar weather is to be expected here at some point too. The weather in this region has been scarily wild this summer and frankly it's too nerve wracking to think about. Rivers from Slovenia pass through here as well, so we're getting a bit flooded too and everyone is on their toes. I hate the tension this weather brings, summers used to be so much better and I hope this won't become a trend...
After a long while, I got sunburnt. Usually I'm able to build a bit of a "base" before going to the seaside because I go to the river, or to the pool, but this year I only went to the river (in my town, where the sunny "beach" is) once!!! Once!!! And I guess, even with all the precautions we took, even with expensive ass 50+ spf sunscreens that we made sure to apply properly and every 30 minutes when outside my shoulders and face got a bit burnt, and my scalp got it the worst lmao, currently I'm in the skin shedding phase. Every time my skin sheds after being sunburnt I'm reminded of that one Malcolm in the Middle episode where sunburnt Reese makes a whole skinsuit. In addition to my stronger than usual tan my freckles are getting more and more insane each year. Two years ago they started appearing on my chin, and now they're very numerous right above my lip too. I hope it doesn't make me look like I have a moustache from afar lmao. I do love my insanely freckled face but I never expected that they would get so extreme in my mid 20s. Due to my short bangs, the top half of my forehead is lacking in freckles, which is a bit silly to see. What I don't love is how when I tan all of the contrast between my skin and hair seems to disappear and I turn into a weird lightly tanned blob. I have a bit of a yellow skin undertone that tans easily (actually I'm not sure what my undertone is, I look okay with both types of jewelry and my veins are both green and blue and purple lmaoao), but my hair color which is kind of reddish brown (some ginger genes in my family) becomes too light when exposed to the sun and the redness goes away... so it just kind of blends with my skin color. During winter there's more striking contrast which I enjoy a lot more... This is why I try not to tan too hard but if I don't I get sunburnt when exposed to the Mediterranean sun. Sigh!!!!!
Ah what else... Well, recently I experienced something funny. I had the (dis)pleasure of witnessing someone try very hard to fit into an environment they simply don't fit in. I'm keeping things too vague which makes this sound very boring, but I got this insane urge to just (metaphorically) pat them on the back and tell them to quit trying and to just give it up. They're being condescendingly talked down to, their incorrect remarks are smugly "kindly" corrected and so on... It's hard to watch this stuff take place but I think any concern I'd show as a stranger would fall on deaf ears. I guess this is just some character building you have to go through as a person trying to navigate online communities that require you to walk on eggshells to integrate properly. I just know that once they make too many faux pas they'll be discarded and everyone will comment "yikes I knew this would happen". I can feel it in my bonesssss. Many such cases...